I know I haven’t been posting for quite a while. We haven’t been getting out much — Erik’s shoulder is injured and he was advised to stay away from climbing and mountain biking; plus, I have been quite absorbed in our research and preparation for our kitchen and living room remodeling.<\/p>\n
However, tonight, at almost midnight on a Friday night, I have the urge to write something. I need to get this off my chest so I can move on, and in the mean time, I want to make a pledge — I want to be a better person, like Erik.<\/p>\n
I made a big mistake — I have been granted some stock options that were scheduled to expire on Feb 27, 2011. I knew the date. I procrastinated. Not because I wanted to time the market _- I don’t follow the stock market. It’s only because “well, I still have time and I’ll get to it.” I was going to exercise & sell today and even sent myself a reminder this morning, but work got busy and I forgot about it until late into the night. Then, I found out… the options expired on the last business day at market close. I missed it! My heart ached. It’s like I just lit a match and burned a pile of bills worth of $11k+.\u00c2\u00a0 It’s not much for a lot of people, but it’s a lot for us, esp. during a time when we are doing everything we can to do a remodel on a budget, and our house needed the remodel.<\/p>\n
I brought the bad news to Erik. I was full of guilt. I didn’t expect him to scold me or anything — he’s not that kind of person, but I was still amazed that he did not even frown. He gave me a big hug, smiled,\u00c2\u00a0 and said to me, “well, if this is this worst thing that has ever happened to you, you are doing pretty well.”\u00c2\u00a0 I am still beating myself to death in my heart for the stupid mistake I made, but in the mean time, I feel enlightened in my realization that one man’s capacity for forgiving others can really be boundless.<\/p>\n
I knew if our roles had switched, it would have been different. I won’t hide it – I may try to rationalize and convince myself that there is nothing we could do to change the situation, but I’m pretty sure my disappointment will still show, which will only make the other person feel worse. I’m so glad that it’s not the other way around.\u00c2\u00a0 I have always been a critical person, more with myself, but also with the people around me. Today’s incident taught me a big lesson. For all the mistakes I’ve criticized my loved one(s) for making that I thought were not forgivable, none of them were really unforgivable (esp. compared to my mistake).\u00c2\u00a0 I need to work on myself to have a bigger heart.<\/p>\n
So. this. is. my. pledge.<\/p>\n
A heavy weight just got lifted….<\/p>\n
Thank you for reading.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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